Doubt.

Hey how's your day?
Mine was kinda suck. I went out today to downtown but it ruined my mood.

By the way,
Doubt.

I've this feeling recently to my crush because a really long and complicated reason.
I began to doubt him.
Not that I don't trust him. (Well kinda actually)

We've been friend since first year of high school.
I don't want to be too confident or what but I feel like he kinda give me back 'that' signal.
I was happy at first. I really did. (IF YOU HAPPEN TO READ THIS AND KNOW WHO I AM. YES I AM HAPPY) But after that 'long-and-complicated-story' started,
I feel like, sometimes, when we chat, he doesn't feel like himself anymore.

He once asked me on last national holiday.

"Hey, are you coming home?"
"I'm not. Why?"
"Why?? Come home"

I don't know but the tone is half-heartedly.
It doesn't feel like him.
It's not like him.

And why do I feel like that?
You know all of it when you've talked a lot with someone right?
You just have the feelings
You just have the hunch.

And I hope that my hunch is wrong.

Good night people.