Gah.
This keeps on going inside my head.
So a couple days ago, that guy suddenly chatted me, after a long time,
"Hey, can I ask you something embarrassing?"
The chat went on and on and he asked me
"This is actually embarrassing so I'm just gonna use Japanese term.. okay?. Uhm- so.. What's the difference between 'suki' and 'koi' "
After I gave him my opinion,
He told me,
"So there is this girl I like.."
The thing is, normal people would feel a broken heart.
But I don't feel a thing.
Emptiness got over me.
No, I don't have a broken heart. Because I don't feel hurt. It's just-- I don't feel anything.
I'd asked myself, "Do I still like him?" But after then I asked myself, "Do you ever like him in the first place? Or you just misunderstood between 'admires' and 'like', the like when you fall for someone.
Wait, I kinda out of topic.
What I mean is,
I'm afraid that I really can't feel anything anymore.
Because these past months I've been endure my own feelings.
I'm not a religious one but I've asked God many times to let me know when should I stop to hold on. Because I have a heavy trust issue. And maybe this is how God told me. Maybe I should stop waiting for him?
